Deep, Dark, Heavy => Strong

I've been working alot with the deep, dark, heavy parts that hold lots of painful memories. I had a very rough weekend and felt some pretty desperate / extreme parts take over. I know all of this work will make me stronger but I really just want to ... be there ALREADY! It's been a very long, very emotional month. I don't find any of this getting much easier yet. I'm told that it will get easier though. I believe the people that have "gone before me." Please, Lord, don't leave me in this time of struggle!